Colin Farrell doesn't consider himself to be "a movie star"

The 'True Detective' star said: "It all happened really, really fast. 'Alexander' and then 'Miami Vice' were films that were very big and that didn't work so much critically and didn't work so much financially. I was made to feel aware of the fact that all of a sudden, things that I was in weren't working. It just made me go, 'Wow, OK.' So I can't believe in the lie that's being presented to me anymore that I'm a movie star and that everything is great. I have this No. 1 movie ['Miami Vice']. Everyone is telling me now that that's gone. So it was kind of like, ugh.

"All of it's a delusion. Telling me it's gone is a delusion. Ever believing that it was there in the first place is a delusion."

While Colin has no regrets when it comes to his career, he no longer cares as much about what people think.

The Irish star told PBS' Tavis Smiley: "Life works in such contradictions, you know? Don't get me wrong: I really want everything I do to be appreciated, to find an audience. I want people to think I'm good at what I do. I want to feel good at what I do.

"But at the same time, I don't relate to the importance of it all with the depth that I used to, when I used to say I didn't care about it. When I used to go, 'I don't care about any of it.' I really cared then. I just didn't know how to acknowledge it or express my caring. I didn't understand it. Now, I still care, but I care less, really. And it's freed me up. That's the irony. It's freed me up."