Maria Shriver's divorce from Arnold Schwarzenegger was "brutal"

Revealing in the book how his affair left her "wracked with confusion, anger, fear, sadness, and anxiety", Maria added in an excerpt obtained by People: "It broke my heart, it broke my spirit, it broke what was left of me.

"Without my marriage, my parents, a job - the dam of my lifelong capital-D Denial just blew apart."

Journalist and author Maria filed for divorce from Arnold in July 2011, though the proceedings were not finalised until December 2021.

She also used her book to reflect on the impact of the separation on her children, Katherine, 35, Christina, 33, Patrick, 31, and 27-year-old Christopher.

Maria added: "Everything about their world and the sanctity of their home got uprooted in an instant," she wrote, praising them for showing "grace, valor, and courage".

The end of Maria's marriage to Arnold followed his admission he had fathered a son, Joseph Baena, now 27, with housekeeper Mildred, 64, in 1997.

Maria added in her book she "was consumed with grief" and "was unsure now of who I was, where I belonged" in the wake of the scandal.

Arnold spoke about the fallout in his self-tited 2023 Netflix documentary, saying: "I had to go to my kids and explain it to them.

"The reason I feel reluctant talking about it is because every time I do, it opens up the wounds again. I think that I have caused enough pain for my family because of my f*** up."

The 'Jingle All the Way' star added: "I am going to have to live with it the rest of my life. People will remember my successes and they will also remember my failures. This is a major failure."

'I Am Maria' is now available for preorder and will be released on 1 April.