Jodie Marsh has been "trying to hold it together" since her mother's death
The former glamour model lost her mum Kristina in September after a battle with cancer and confessed that she's been putting on a brave face as she grieves for her mother
22 January 2021
Taking to Instagram, Jodie wrote: "Today has been a rough day for me. I've felt angry and frustrated all day, until eventually I had a meltdown/outburst and then deep crying sobs. I am really struggling today. (sic)"
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The 42-year-old star revealed that she was being candid on the social media site so she could help others going through similar situations.
She added: "Inside I'm broken and trying every day to hold it together. I'm also trying to be strong for those around me. I know I don't have to be but I WANT to be. Anyway, I don't want sympathy, I just wanted to share how I'm feeling. (sic)"
Jodie explained how grief had hit her like a "huge wave" and left her in tears.
She said: "I've been crying since about 3pm and I can't stop. And that's ok. It's ok to cry and it's normal to grieve. It's good to talk about it.
"And no one is super human (even though we try to be). I'm just feeling extra lost today and I miss her so so so much. And I still can't believe she's gone. I feel so grateful for all the love I've had, I really do and actually that's what has gotten me through! I don't know why today of all days, there's no reason.
"It just hit me again like a huge wave. They say grief comes in waves and it's true – the wave is big today. I'm sure I'll be fine again tomorrow. Kissing a ponies velvety nose will make me feel better. Love you all xxxxxx. (sic)"